In this last episode of Grey’s anatomy, they quoted this one psychologist as saying the most important relation ship you have is the one with your parents. Every relationship beyond your first relationship with your parents is a desperate attempt to recreate that initial relationship.
In a sense, that makes sense. Girls tend to like men like their father and boys tend to like women like their mother.
But this just signified the importance of family to a young child. I am oh-so grateful for the parents I have! They have given me a good start and I love it!
When I become a parent, I want to do the same things my parents have done for me! Sheesh….I feel like I have won the parent lottery and my annuity payments will never end!
Sometimes, my mail application opens up a random spam email, and today,when I logged into my computer I saw this quote in huge purple letters:
"If you had a friend who talked to you like you sometimes talk to yourself, would you continue to hang around with that person?"
— Rob Bremer
(For some reason, Tumblr is centering all of my text and has turned it purple and I don’t know how to fix it lol). But if you really think about this quote, it is super deep! I mean how many times have I stayed up late at night thinking about the things I’ve done wrong, or how could I have responded to situations in a better way? Would I want to consider my inner self my best friend…a friend…an associate? no. This person is a hater. I usually refrain from using the word hater simply because i think it is generally used to dismiss some one else’s negative opinions with out evaluating the validity of them….but in this case, I can honestly call myself a hater.
On an even deeper level, you are supposed to love others the same way you love yourself. And I can honestly say i love the hell outta myself (lol) but at the same time, I treat my self the way I do. I criticize, judge, and negatively critique myself sooo much. I know for a fact, that I would not want my significant other who ‘loves’ me to treat me like I do myself. And that’s deep. I’m not ready to love anyone else, because I do not love my self properly.
I cause my own self so much doubt and grief by overly criticizing my self and it is actually ridiculous. I’m 20 years old and i am allowed to make mistakes, do stupid things, and make some people mad. I do not need to hold myself up to perfect standards. Now that I think about it, I simply will not be perfect so why do I feel the pressure to be held up to perfect standards. That shits crayyyyy.
What’s crazy about this is, I honestly do not treat other people this way! I do EVERYthing I can to treat others with respect and try to encourage them at all times. Why can’t I o this for my self…hmm? Does this subconsciously say that I love others more the myself? hmmm
So I have decided….from this point on….to love my self. To love my self like I would another person.
I am soooo tired…but sometimes…i just get in a mood to simply type. so i am now typing. boom.
so how do i feel right now…tired. lol i want to sleep and i also feel discontent with this ipad case. the keys are too close, and the ipad does not lock into the keyboard….so if i wiggle too far to the left or the right….you know what…..my ipad goes flopping all over the place and my typing session is over. so the moral of the story is….do not buy your ipad jeyboard/case from brook stone. they keeyboard really does feel like a real keyboard…..but i need flexibility. i am a college student and most of my work is dont sitting around in some random place, not necessarily at a desk or a table with a flat surface. i will try to take it back once again tomorrow….and we will see what happens
another thing i have realized is that i still don’t know how to spell the word neccessarily. or neccessary. and this site does not have spell check!!!! womp womp. back to the second grade for me!!!! lol
As a strong minded, opinionated Libertarian it wouldn’t take much guess work to determine where I stand on government social welfare programs. I am as radically opposed as possible. I feel that social welfare bleeds the budget, burdens tax payers and helps to breed a society of perpetual children…
American hypocrisy on the holocaust that was the slave trade and slave economy. Where is the National Slavery Museum that should be situated right next to the National Holocaust Museum in Washington, D.C., a city literally built from the ground-up by African slaves?
There has never been another large historical event that has it’s descendents be told to ‘get over it’ than the ancestors of the enslavement of millions of Africans transported across the Atlantic.
There has never been such any formal set of reparations for the 300+ centuries…
I realized that the reason why so many people (myself included) use tumblr, Facebook, and twitter is because ee are inevitably attention whores.
And as I was writing this, I realized that I shouldn’t generalize, so from this point on I will only refer to myself.
I honestly feel bad when someone does not like or comment on my status, retweet or reply to my tweet, or leave any notes on my blog posts. I always feel like some posts, are less adequate than others and honestly, I am ashamed of them. It’s like my thoughts are not worthy of this blog. And that’s deep.
What will really be ironic is if no one leaves any notes on this blog.